Oh, hey there! I have no great explanation for why I went on a blogging hiatus. Life has been more good than bad. Most things have stayed the same, but there have been a few big changes and occurrences. I’ve been happy and engaged and sad and detached.
I suppose late October did mark a turning point for me. A best friend/co-worker took a job with another company. I myself accepted a job offer in another department, doing something entirely different. So it was a double whammy: my work environment and routine was shaken up and I found myself feeling like the awkward new girl who was out of her element. The good news is that I talk to and see my pal regularly. There’s still a lot of learning and challenges to face in my role, but I find it fulfilling and am glad to be meeting new people and developing new skills.
Love? Passion? Excitement? I seem to have let myself lose interest in things that I used to consume obsessively. Music, television, art, reading — I literally have a year’s worth of The New Yorker to read. I suppose I know what’s bringing me down, or who, but come on. I don’t want to be yet another asshole who blames other people for her mental issues. It’s not always easy and there are definitely people out there who have real problems, but my problems are completely selfish and I really can choose to suck it up, let it go, and stay positive.
I’ve gotten annoyed, I’ve let myself get my hopes up, I’ve had extremely stressful moments and hugely embarrassing moments, and my heart has been broken. I’m confused, I feel stuck, and I’m scared.
Ugh. I could get into all my “problems,” but I’ll spare you for now. After being quite depressed last week and getting an awesome pep talk/reality check from Jen, I’m slowly snapping out of it and finding the happy again. Time is passing and life is going on and I gotta grow up. As much pride as I take in enjoying the “real” world, the internet is playing a huge role in motivating and inspiring me. Thank you, funny people of Twitter and committed bloggers! Thank you, Pinterest! And thank you, loyal friends, who are always there to support me while also being real and calling me out on my shit attitude. You guys are the best.
I definitely hope to post more as I get my groove back. I did lose that lovin’ feeling for awhile, but I’m getting it back. Smiles all around!